Sunday, January 14, 2007

I'm back in Sheffield now. I had to get up and leave home very early in the morning. I kissed my Mum goodbye when she went for work. I think it was about 9.30am when me and my Dad left Widnes. It feels really sad because a whole month has passed at home- and now I must go back and readjust and it's just, oh, so so hard to do so. I don't want to do it, but I have to, that sort of thing. It becomes a challenge after you really start to enjoy home comforts. The drive was a pretty clear run and we got into Sheffield for 11.30am. By which time, my Dad helped me to get my suitcases up to my room, but I had to unpack myself because there was no parking spaces for my Dad outside, so he had to rush and leave. I didn't mind unpacking all on my own, less hassle really. He did give me a £10 Love2Shop gift voucher though to bide me over for if I wanted to buy anything special.

It took about two or three hours to get that task and a half out of the way, let me tell you. I rearranged my whole wardrobe in a nice neat little order though, starting with jeans on the left and ranging through to tops, cardigans, skirts, dresses and jackets/coats/dressing gown. I like it when things are organised. After that, I decided to hang my pin board up on my wall (finally!) which again took a little while as the pins kept on sliding out of place and all that, so in the end I used proper pins instead of those hole type ones. Worked a treat and it's hanging by a piece of thread (or four). After this, I made up my bed and laid out new sheets underneath and freshly washed and ironed pillowcases. It should be really nice to sleep in my bed tonight then.

I went online for a bit. Oh I also saw all my housemates :D When I got back, Laura gave me my birthday present- it was a set of pink blossom bath stuff- bath cream, body lotion, that sorta thing. Plus I got some toffee choccys off her- how nice!! Later on, when I was giving Kat the cheque to pay for this month's failed bill (on my behalf) she handed me my birthday pressie. It was a Royal Jelly bathset and some little chocolates. Again- all very yummy indeed.

Then, I made some miso soup for lunch, which I found to be highly tasty and filling to boot. Yum. After this, I got ready and went out down town, I went with Kim and her friend Emily who were on their way to Barcelona!! I just walked down to the tram station with them though. Then I walked down past the Devonshire Quarter and into the city centre where I bought Kim's birthday present with my gift voucher (as well as some tanning/moisturising cream for moi) and some other things (like health foods- orange breakfast spread, some Megaberry Still Fruit juice drink, sugar less sweeties), then I went to Tesco to see if they had any applications going for a job. Turns out they didn't at the particular one I went to, so I'm going to try and find the other store and go visit that one. Yeah. I'll tell you how any progress goes as and when it happens.

I'm feeling pretty disorientated to be honest. There's nothing worse than feeling as though you don't know where you belong...even though you do know where you belong, but it's the readjusting part which always gets to me. Every time. I know it's just that first day/night that is the hardest though, having to sleep in an unfamiliar bed, even if it is actually yours..yet it feels different? somehow. Hard to truly explain. Or maybe it's the fact I'm going to be sleeping alone for a good fortnight or so and many other nights too until I break up for the next holiday, whenever that may be. Grim. Especially since I'm used to feeling the warmth of waking up with Gary next to me and over the past month, have barely had one night where we didn't do that.

I dunno, maybe I'll feel better after some warm food and a good sleep. I can see myself feeling slightly relieved anyhow. Less worried, tense and just plain awkward. Or maybe a good conversation would be nice. I'm really feeling the chill this term of the christmas blues, that's for sure. Just after Christmas, is supposed to be the highest drop-out rate for students who decide to quit and go back home instead. I can't say I blame them too much in a way. Not saying by the way, that I want to quit- but after the warmth and the loveliness of Christmas is over, all you're really left with is the empty shell of work. Not being able to see Gary or my family is grim too. Really grim.

Oh, my birthday buffet the other day was really nice. Gary, Andy and Gaz came around and we watched Tetsuo II: Body Hammer, which was a weird one- kinda like a remake of the original on a better budget. Not as good though, or as powerful, in my opinion. The malteser chocolate cake I made went down a real treat- everyone who tried it seemed to really enjoy it :) So there ya see, I can cook :p teehee. I think I made too much buffet food though- as half of it didn't even get ate. Oh well.

Anyhow, I'm going to go eat now and maybe have a rest.

I hope this tired out/home sick feeling dissipates soon, otherwise I'll be just miserable :(

Oh, I finished reading 'Porno' by Irvine Welsh this morning. Finally.

Bless us all...

Yesterday (Friday the 12th), me, Gary and my parents went to Chester for the day! It was really nice, just a brisk and relaxing stroll around the shops to be honest, but it was nice because I got to spend time with my loved ones. Also, we had a splendid meal in the evening at a pub in Mickle Trafford (a small village outside of Chester), where we engaged in chitter chatter and ate heartily. I had a tomato soup w/roll and for starters and then I had a veggie crumble which was basically vegetables in a creamy cheese sauce topped with breadcrumbs...was fit.
I had an awesome time. I just wish I could live it all over again...the past month has been amazing.